[Maybe it is a gamble, but it's safer than doing anything to himself anywhere else. He still doesn't see why Silver feels bad about Kimbley's death. He's trying to understand but it doesn't come easily. Does everyone else feel like this? Why? And just as importantly, why doesn't he get it like everyone else?

It's not useful to dwell on that, so he doesn't. Instead he thinks about Tsukiyama and about what happened after the earthquake, when neither of them wanted to let go.

"Don't ever leave me, all right?"

"You never need to worry about that. I don't want anyone else. I just want to be with you and I'd shut out the whole world if I could because nothing will ever be better than this."

"...Good. You're mine. Nothing is going to take you from me; I mean it when I say that I won't let anyone touch you."

Ryuunosuke exhales slowly and nods.]

Okay. I won't do anything like that. I promise.

[He meant what he said. He's curious about dying, yes, but he doesn't want to hurt Tsukiyama. He can't hurt Tsukiyama. Even if he could hurt Silver (and he feels weird thinking about that, though he's not sure why he feels weird) he can't do that to Tsukiyama.]

Sorry. I... Sometimes I think I'm figuring things out and I understand people and then stuff like this happens and I realize I haven't gotten very far at all.

[It's still cold, but he's trying very hard to block that out.]