Not just for dating me! Though I really do appreciate that too.
[AIADA'S GETTING LOVEBOMBED SO HARD]
I really do mean it. For everything. I wouldn't have been able to feel anything like this when I showed up here! You've really helped me out. I don't feel anything like I did back home... which I guess was frustrated, maybe? Low-key frustrated, probably. But I don't feel like that anymore and look at all the stuff I can do with my emotions now! I don't kill flowers anymore and I can even make them! Though they're really tiny, I'm working on that.
I guess I'm just really, really glad I met you. And I'm so happy that we're dating! I don't think it'd be possible for me to be happier!
Well, to be honest, I'm not entirely sure either. You were really nice to me though, and patient with me when I had no idea what I was doing. You also let me be around you a lot and I think I picked up on how to express and experience emotion from you. Well, the really positive stuff you usually give off, at least!
...And then there was the whole... apathy thing. I didn't like a lot of what I felt, but it was genuine and real and it was the first time I'd experienced a lot of that. I don't ever want to go through that again and I definitely don't want you to go through that again... but I did get to experience stuff I hadn't before, so there's that!
I guess you didn't really need to do anything. I just needed you in my life!
[AND APPARENTLY THIS IS THE PERFECT CONCLUSION BECAUSE A GLITTERBOMB GOES OFF.]
...That sort of thing is exactly what I was trying to tell you about before - when I said there are no truly bad experiences. There are negative things that we go through sometimes, but the experiences overall are good things to have.
While you were apathetic like that. I was afraid you wouldn't get to feel anything again. I didn't really know what to do to help either and it felt like I wasn't doing anything, so... I was really scared that you'd be stuck like that. And even though I wasn't that bad off... I could at least kinda get what it was like and knowing you'd be apathetic like that was just... really horrible.
[That sure was a great explanation. He's staring down at the ground (and boy is it a fascinating view) instead of looking at Tsukiyama.]
[...Well, the ground is a good long way down, so the view probably is really interesting, but that's not the point right now; for the time being, he just moves a bit closer, and reaches out to play with Ryuunosuke's hair a little.]
You really were helping me, even if you couldn't relieve the apathy. I couldn't feel much about it at the moment, but...having someone around that I could trust and knew would keep me safe was a good thing. I needed you there; I don't like thinking about what could have happened if you weren't.
And I'm all right now. It was difficult at the time, but I'm fine.
[O-oh, that's really nice... He'll lean into that after a moment, alright. He's bright red and grinning a lot, but wow, you're really good at making him feel special.]
I'm so happy I could be there for you. I'm so, so glad I could help.
You don't ever have to worry about being alone, because I'll always be by your side.
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[He settles a bit and the sparkles fade, though it's still warm.]
I don't think you have to be worried about it, but I'm not going to push. If you don't want to date, then that's okay.
[...he's not entirely sure why, but he's trying??]
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[And that's almost immediate.]
It's like I said to you back then; I don't...know for sure, but it's possible that I love you. Why wouldn't I want to?
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I'm so, so glad to hear that, Tsukiyama. I don't really know if I can put it into words, but... I don't think I've ever been this happy.
[The over-the-top excitement is gone (for now?) but he really does mean it.]
I've never felt this way about anyone. I think it's possible that I love you too, so... so I'd really, really like to try this!
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...I'd like that, then.
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[There are the sparkles again!]
I'm still going to invite myself over at weird hours but now we can call them dates!
[And apparently this idea is very exciting!!]
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[RYUUNOSUKE, PLEASE...]
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[SPARKLES INTENSIFY oh god it's like a little shower of them]
I won't forget a single minute of this, Tsukiyama!
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[Why are you so cute.]
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Hey, now that we're dating, you can call me Ryuunosuke, right? It'd be weird if you kept calling me "Uryuu-san"!
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[What does he do with this.]
You would really find it that weird?
[TSUKIYAMA, NO.]
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[...]
So does that mean I'm still calling you Tsukiyama...?
[THINGS HE DIDN'T THINK ABOUT]
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[He's...kind of like that...]
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[...]
But I guess if that's going to be too weird for you, it's alright.
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[And from the sound of it, he will.]
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[SPARKLES... He really is excited about that, he's sure his name is going to sound great when you finally do manage to say it!!]
...And thanks, Tsukiyama. For everything. You're the best.
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[...That, and he's pretty sure you don't have to thank someone for dating you?]
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[AIADA'S GETTING LOVEBOMBED SO HARD]
I really do mean it. For everything. I wouldn't have been able to feel anything like this when I showed up here! You've really helped me out. I don't feel anything like I did back home... which I guess was frustrated, maybe? Low-key frustrated, probably. But I don't feel like that anymore and look at all the stuff I can do with my emotions now! I don't kill flowers anymore and I can even make them! Though they're really tiny, I'm working on that.
I guess I'm just really, really glad I met you. And I'm so happy that we're dating! I don't think it'd be possible for me to be happier!
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[HE IS SO CONFUSED BY ALL OF THIS, NOT EVEN GONNA LIE
IT'S A NICE SORT OF CONFUSED
BUT AT THE SAME TIME, WHAT THE HECK]
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...And then there was the whole... apathy thing. I didn't like a lot of what I felt, but it was genuine and real and it was the first time I'd experienced a lot of that. I don't ever want to go through that again and I definitely don't want you to go through that again... but I did get to experience stuff I hadn't before, so there's that!
I guess you didn't really need to do anything. I just needed you in my life!
[AND APPARENTLY THIS IS THE PERFECT CONCLUSION BECAUSE A GLITTERBOMB GOES OFF.]
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That said, though...]
...That sort of thing is exactly what I was trying to tell you about before - when I said there are no truly bad experiences. There are negative things that we go through sometimes, but the experiences overall are good things to have.
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I'd definitely prefer not to experience fear again though. That one was one of the worst.
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[Now he's curious. He probably shouldn't pry, but...]
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[That sure was a great explanation. He's staring down at the ground (and boy is it a fascinating view) instead of looking at Tsukiyama.]
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You really were helping me, even if you couldn't relieve the apathy. I couldn't feel much about it at the moment, but...having someone around that I could trust and knew would keep me safe was a good thing. I needed you there; I don't like thinking about what could have happened if you weren't.
And I'm all right now. It was difficult at the time, but I'm fine.
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I'm so happy I could be there for you. I'm so, so glad I could help.
You don't ever have to worry about being alone, because I'll always be by your side.
[...]
Was that a little too forward?
[THAT MIGHT'VE BEEN A LITTLE TOO FORWARD]
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