Yeah, I'm staying with him. Obviously he's not feeling anything, but he likes having me around and I probably wouldn't be able to sit still if I wasn't here with him.
And besides, I want to be here. So it works out. I just don't know what to do to help. I don't think there's anything anyone can do. And there's no guarantee that he'll go back to the way he was either, though I'm trying really hard to convince myself everything will be okay eventually.
[The answer is immediate, but the anxiety is still there.]
I don't want him to be alone, even if he won't feel anything about that. I don't want to abandon him. It's not just for his sake either, he's... Well, like I said, he's important to me and I honestly don't know what I'd do without him.
[...Probably pester Silver half to death.]
I really hope that doesn't happen because I don't think either of us will handle it well. But if it does then... well, I guess I'll do what I can to work with it. I'm not leaving.
...If it was anyone else, I wouldn't stick around.
[As much as he likes Silver, he definitely wouldn't put himself through anything worse than this. This hasn't even been all that bad, but if it doesn't eventually get better...]
But yeah, you're right. He's not going to be okay with it either, but... I guess I've managed to get enough feelings experience for this to actually be really awful, so... Good job, me.
[oh my god why did he ever want feelings, feelings suck]
...I'm probably the last guy you want feelings advice from, but it's probably going to be bad whenever he comes around. If he's aware that he's messed up right now, he's probably going to be really upset when everything hits him later.
Yeah. We don't have anyone else, so he's taking it pretty hard.
[He doesn't sound upset on his own behalf, though.]
It doesn't upset me, though, and it's not like I'm worried about it personally; I've got a few months left in me, and from the sound of it they're not going to be too bad. So it's mostly just making sure he's not a disaster over it.
[Ah... He doesn't seem surprised that Ryuunosuke's asking, really; hell knows it's something he'd ask, in his position.]
You know, I keep asking myself the same damn thing? I don't really have a good reason to. But then, I do all sorts of things for even less; either way, here I am.
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And besides, I want to be here. So it works out. I just don't know what to do to help. I don't think there's anything anyone can do. And there's no guarantee that he'll go back to the way he was either, though I'm trying really hard to convince myself everything will be okay eventually.
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[The answer is immediate, but the anxiety is still there.]
I don't want him to be alone, even if he won't feel anything about that. I don't want to abandon him. It's not just for his sake either, he's... Well, like I said, he's important to me and I honestly don't know what I'd do without him.
[...Probably pester Silver half to death.]
I really hope that doesn't happen because I don't think either of us will handle it well. But if it does then... well, I guess I'll do what I can to work with it. I'm not leaving.
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[Or for no real reason at all. You know how it goes.]
From the sound of it, you're going to handle it worse than he is.
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[As much as he likes Silver, he definitely wouldn't put himself through anything worse than this. This hasn't even been all that bad, but if it doesn't eventually get better...]
But yeah, you're right. He's not going to be okay with it either, but... I guess I've managed to get enough feelings experience for this to actually be really awful, so... Good job, me.
[oh my god why did he ever want feelings, feelings suck]
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[That sounds tentative, like he's not actually sure that's a good thing.]
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Again, last person you want advice from. But just be yourself at him if he gets upset. That tends to help.
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[...]
Once I leave this place and go back home, my life is looking to be pretty short.
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[He does sound sorry, for what it's worth. He's just incredibly awkward about it.]
So you guys were friends back home?
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[He doesn't sound upset on his own behalf, though.]
It doesn't upset me, though, and it's not like I'm worried about it personally; I've got a few months left in me, and from the sound of it they're not going to be too bad. So it's mostly just making sure he's not a disaster over it.
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[ryuunosuke]
...But I hope he starts doing better eventually-- actually...
[Give him a moment while he thinks it over.]
Why are you sticking around him? That sounds like the sort of troublesome thing you wouldn't want to deal with, right?
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You know, I keep asking myself the same damn thing? I don't really have a good reason to. But then, I do all sorts of things for even less; either way, here I am.
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[He still sounds kind of confused but he's trying!!]
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[AT LEAST HE'S HONEST??]
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Still think the feelings are worth it, even if they're messing you up right now?
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