[And a good amount of emotions go flickering across the crystal, though it's sort of hard to pick out one in the massive jumble.]
...He's really important to me. You'd think I'd know how to handle something like that, right? But I have no idea what to do. He's not upset about being like this, obviously, but he thinks he probably should be and I don't even know what happened, but I don't want to press him to talk about it either and I just...
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Sorry. I haven't really talked about this with anyone. Obviously.
Holy shit, no, I don't expect you to know how to handle anything like that. People like us don't know how to handle anything like a sane person.
[Thanks, Kimbley.]
...I have to wonder if whatever hit him is the same thing that hit someone I know from back home. He talked to me a bit recently, and while he's not usually manic, he's usually one of those people that's always moving forward. You know what I mean? He sounded pretty messed up the last time I talked to him, though.
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You can talk to me about stuff if you want to. It's not like I'm going to tell anyone.
Yeah. Well, alright, I don't know that for sure, but I see him all the time and he went missing for awhile. I didn't see him in any of his usual spots and the fact that people were getting kidnapped around that time? It's too much of a coincidence.
He hasn't told me anything about what happened either, so I can only assume it was bad.
[He's quiet for a moment, though it's obvious this isn't a pleasant topic. He's trying not to send too much anxiety through the crystal, but it's not working very well.]
...It's probably really stupid to be afraid of something like that happening again. He can take care of himself, but something happened anyway.
Yeah, I'm staying with him. Obviously he's not feeling anything, but he likes having me around and I probably wouldn't be able to sit still if I wasn't here with him.
And besides, I want to be here. So it works out. I just don't know what to do to help. I don't think there's anything anyone can do. And there's no guarantee that he'll go back to the way he was either, though I'm trying really hard to convince myself everything will be okay eventually.
[The answer is immediate, but the anxiety is still there.]
I don't want him to be alone, even if he won't feel anything about that. I don't want to abandon him. It's not just for his sake either, he's... Well, like I said, he's important to me and I honestly don't know what I'd do without him.
[...Probably pester Silver half to death.]
I really hope that doesn't happen because I don't think either of us will handle it well. But if it does then... well, I guess I'll do what I can to work with it. I'm not leaving.
...If it was anyone else, I wouldn't stick around.
[As much as he likes Silver, he definitely wouldn't put himself through anything worse than this. This hasn't even been all that bad, but if it doesn't eventually get better...]
But yeah, you're right. He's not going to be okay with it either, but... I guess I've managed to get enough feelings experience for this to actually be really awful, so... Good job, me.
[oh my god why did he ever want feelings, feelings suck]
...I'm probably the last guy you want feelings advice from, but it's probably going to be bad whenever he comes around. If he's aware that he's messed up right now, he's probably going to be really upset when everything hits him later.
Yeah. We don't have anyone else, so he's taking it pretty hard.
[He doesn't sound upset on his own behalf, though.]
It doesn't upset me, though, and it's not like I'm worried about it personally; I've got a few months left in me, and from the sound of it they're not going to be too bad. So it's mostly just making sure he's not a disaster over it.
[Ah... He doesn't seem surprised that Ryuunosuke's asking, really; hell knows it's something he'd ask, in his position.]
You know, I keep asking myself the same damn thing? I don't really have a good reason to. But then, I do all sorts of things for even less; either way, here I am.
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[And a good amount of emotions go flickering across the crystal, though it's sort of hard to pick out one in the massive jumble.]
...He's really important to me. You'd think I'd know how to handle something like that, right? But I have no idea what to do. He's not upset about being like this, obviously, but he thinks he probably should be and I don't even know what happened, but I don't want to press him to talk about it either and I just...
[...]
Sorry. I haven't really talked about this with anyone. Obviously.
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[Thanks, Kimbley.]
...I have to wonder if whatever hit him is the same thing that hit someone I know from back home. He talked to me a bit recently, and while he's not usually manic, he's usually one of those people that's always moving forward. You know what I mean? He sounded pretty messed up the last time I talked to him, though.
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You can talk to me about stuff if you want to. It's not like I'm going to tell anyone.
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Yeah, I guess it would be pretty weird if I started handling anything in a halfway sane manner...
[It's getting him to relax though, so well done!]
...This is probably going to sound really weird, but that guy you know from back home... was he one of those kidnapping victims recently?
[HE'S GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THIS maybe]
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I don't know for sure, but I've got a good reason to think he was involved somehow, yeah.
Your friend was caught up in that?
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He hasn't told me anything about what happened either, so I can only assume it was bad.
[He's quiet for a moment, though it's obvious this isn't a pleasant topic. He's trying not to send too much anxiety through the crystal, but it's not working very well.]
...It's probably really stupid to be afraid of something like that happening again. He can take care of himself, but something happened anyway.
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And besides, I want to be here. So it works out. I just don't know what to do to help. I don't think there's anything anyone can do. And there's no guarantee that he'll go back to the way he was either, though I'm trying really hard to convince myself everything will be okay eventually.
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[The answer is immediate, but the anxiety is still there.]
I don't want him to be alone, even if he won't feel anything about that. I don't want to abandon him. It's not just for his sake either, he's... Well, like I said, he's important to me and I honestly don't know what I'd do without him.
[...Probably pester Silver half to death.]
I really hope that doesn't happen because I don't think either of us will handle it well. But if it does then... well, I guess I'll do what I can to work with it. I'm not leaving.
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[Or for no real reason at all. You know how it goes.]
From the sound of it, you're going to handle it worse than he is.
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[As much as he likes Silver, he definitely wouldn't put himself through anything worse than this. This hasn't even been all that bad, but if it doesn't eventually get better...]
But yeah, you're right. He's not going to be okay with it either, but... I guess I've managed to get enough feelings experience for this to actually be really awful, so... Good job, me.
[oh my god why did he ever want feelings, feelings suck]
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[That sounds tentative, like he's not actually sure that's a good thing.]
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Again, last person you want advice from. But just be yourself at him if he gets upset. That tends to help.
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Once I leave this place and go back home, my life is looking to be pretty short.
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[He does sound sorry, for what it's worth. He's just incredibly awkward about it.]
So you guys were friends back home?
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[He doesn't sound upset on his own behalf, though.]
It doesn't upset me, though, and it's not like I'm worried about it personally; I've got a few months left in me, and from the sound of it they're not going to be too bad. So it's mostly just making sure he's not a disaster over it.
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[ryuunosuke]
...But I hope he starts doing better eventually-- actually...
[Give him a moment while he thinks it over.]
Why are you sticking around him? That sounds like the sort of troublesome thing you wouldn't want to deal with, right?
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You know, I keep asking myself the same damn thing? I don't really have a good reason to. But then, I do all sorts of things for even less; either way, here I am.
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[He still sounds kind of confused but he's trying!!]
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[AT LEAST HE'S HONEST??]
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