Hell no. It's not like I'm doing anything to cause it, either - I mean, I know the apathy kind of eats the liquid after a while, and I...think the red is because I'm aligned to Elios? But it's nothing I'm too aware of doing.
I don't really know how to help you there. I hang out with someone who always makes me feel great, but I don't know if that sort of thing would work on you.
I think it's just kind of a universal thing...? It does that even when I'm not hanging out with anyone.
[...Those implications are a little unfortunate, hang on- ]
...Wow. Okay, I did not mean that to be half as depressing as it sounded, I'm pretty sure it's just the status quo and not anything aimed at myself specifically.
It's something I wouldn't have put into words like that before coming here, but at least I get why I like watching people die so much now, and why I don't care who does it as long as somebody does.
Are you okay with leaving things the way they are or is that something you want to try to change? I mean, I wouldn't know how to start changing, but...
[You can probably tell he's shrugging really hard. Like hell if he knows how to handle this.]
I guess it's because they're expecting someone like me. But to be fair, I don't know if I would've ended up like this if it weren't for the people I met when I first got here.
You don't have to say anything. It's like I've said, I'm pretty okay with things the way they are.
I don't really see much reason to change anything. If I really have to - and I've got no idea why I'd really have to - then I'll think about it? But I like things like this, I guess.
You don't have to. I mean, maybe if things start going really badly with Elios you might want to think about trying something new, but I think it's up to you what you do.
And hey, if you like it, that's got to give you some positivity, right?
[thank you, ryuunosuke, you are definitely helping]
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[Who knows. Some of those people might want to try the apathy drug out again.]
So do you usually feel upset? You sound okay to me.
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[...he's got no idea how this works.]
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[Don't worry Kimbley, you're not alone.]
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[...???]
I'll probably ask someone eventually, I just know he's probably going to get pissed off because it's so dark.
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Like I said, it's okay. It's not like I really mind or anything, and I'm not upset.
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Well yeah, but something's causing your crystal to go dark. Are you sure you're okay?
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Elios is love and hatred, right? That...probably explains a lot.
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There are people you don't hate though, right? Maybe try hanging out with them more?
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[...Those implications are a little unfortunate, hang on- ]
...Wow. Okay, I did not mean that to be half as depressing as it sounded, I'm pretty sure it's just the status quo and not anything aimed at myself specifically.
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[Because that's what it's sounding like and... yikes.]
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[Like it ain't even a thing.]
It's something I wouldn't have put into words like that before coming here, but at least I get why I like watching people die so much now, and why I don't care who does it as long as somebody does.
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[Well, that's not important right now.]
Are you okay with leaving things the way they are or is that something you want to try to change? I mean, I wouldn't know how to start changing, but...
[You can probably tell he's shrugging really hard. Like hell if he knows how to handle this.]
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[...but more seriously--]
I guess it's because they're expecting someone like me. But to be fair, I don't know if I would've ended up like this if it weren't for the people I met when I first got here.
I wish I knew what to say, but I have no idea.
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I don't really see much reason to change anything. If I really have to - and I've got no idea why I'd really have to - then I'll think about it? But I like things like this, I guess.
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And hey, if you like it, that's got to give you some positivity, right?
[thank you, ryuunosuke, you are definitely helping]
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You know, I've considered talking to him at some point. No idea why I haven't yet, honestly, but sometimes I think about it.
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[#priorities]
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Like something. I'll probably try to catch him after this flower thing so he doesn't decide that what I really need in my life is a bunch of dates.
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[Is he joking?? Maybe???]
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[GIVE HIM A MOMENT TO LAUGH REALLY HARD, OKAY]
You know, I probably should try to deny that, but wow.
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That's going to get a massive amount of... something over the crystal.]
Th-That's--! Wow.
[WOW NO THAT IS TOTALLY NOT WHAT HE IS TRYING TO DO he would totally fuck the really manic guy SHUT UP KIMBLEY]
No?? I'm not... That's not...!
[...okay that's definitely embarrassment now.]
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