EMPATHEIAS IC CONTACT

[greatestcool]

IC CONTACT

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[alchemicals]

...Okay, did you ever notice the crystal doing weird things? Like there was nothing happening and then suddenly just about every damn thing that could happen inside that thing was happening.

Is that normal.

[...actually filling it with feelings. he is referring to actually filling it with feelings like a competent person.]

[greatestcool]

Um. You mean... filling it? I'm pretty sure most people's crystals do that.

[OH NO KIMBLEY YOU HAD FEELINGS!!!!]

[alchemicals]

...Huh.

[God, you can practically hear the headtilting over the crystal, what the shit- ]

There usually aren't that many colors.

[greatestcool]

That's good though, that means you're putting a lot of feelings in there! Mine's like, really bright green.

[He can definitely do appreciation!! He is a master at appreciating things, apparently.]

What color's yours?

[alchemicals]

...Well, it's usually this really, really dark red, and it mostly still is. Now it's...

[...]

Sort of disgusting, actually, but either way it's pretty dark.

[greatestcool]

Huh, have you been upset lately? Mad or other negative emotions? Mine gets darker whenever stuff like that comes up.

[alchemicals]

Yeah, I kind of had a lot of negativity dumped into my head for the past couple of months, so that's probably it. A few good things, too, don't get me wrong. But it's usually pretty negative, and a lot of the good things usually end up getting destroyed anyway, probably because there are less of them.

I know enough to not show that to most people, though.

[greatestcool]

Ah, I gotcha. Yeah, it's probably best not to let anyone see it. I don't know what they'd do, but... yeah.

[Who knows. Some of those people might want to try the apathy drug out again.]

So do you usually feel upset? You sound okay to me.

[alchemicals]

Hell no. It's not like I'm doing anything to cause it, either - I mean, I know the apathy kind of eats the liquid after a while, and I...think the red is because I'm aligned to Elios? But it's nothing I'm too aware of doing.

[...he's got no idea how this works.]

[greatestcool]

Hmm, yeah, that'd explain the red at least. I don't really know how to get it to do anything; I just know I'm happy a lot and mine's really bright.

[Don't worry Kimbley, you're not alone.]

[alchemicals]

Well, I still don't usually feel a lot of anything, so...

[...???]

I'll probably ask someone eventually, I just know he's probably going to get pissed off because it's so dark.

[greatestcool]

I don't really know how to help you there. I hang out with someone who always makes me feel great, but I don't know if that sort of thing would work on you.

[alchemicals]

[...Did he accidentally make you kind of weird and sad again.]

Like I said, it's okay. It's not like I really mind or anything, and I'm not upset.

[greatestcool]

[Maybe a little bit...]

Well yeah, but something's causing your crystal to go dark. Are you sure you're okay?

[alchemicals]

...Pretty sure.

[...]

Elios is love and hatred, right? That...probably explains a lot.

[greatestcool]

Yeah. I guess it does. I was aligned to Elios when I first showed up, but it changed somehow.

[...]

There are people you don't hate though, right? Maybe try hanging out with them more?

[alchemicals]

I think it's just kind of a universal thing...? It does that even when I'm not hanging out with anyone.

[...Those implications are a little unfortunate, hang on- ]

...Wow. Okay, I did not mean that to be half as depressing as it sounded, I'm pretty sure it's just the status quo and not anything aimed at myself specifically.

[greatestcool]

Well, at least it's not aimed at you? But wow, that's... something else. Do you just hate everyone and some people you hate less than others?

[Because that's what it's sounding like and... yikes.]

[alchemicals]

Basically.

[Like it ain't even a thing.]

It's something I wouldn't have put into words like that before coming here, but at least I get why I like watching people die so much now, and why I don't care who does it as long as somebody does.

[greatestcool]

...I wonder if it was that way for me...?

[Well, that's not important right now.]

Are you okay with leaving things the way they are or is that something you want to try to change? I mean, I wouldn't know how to start changing, but...

[You can probably tell he's shrugging really hard. Like hell if he knows how to handle this.]

[alchemicals]

...You know, everyone keeps asking me that and I don't get why.

[greatestcool]

Well, I guess that answers that question!

[...but more seriously--]

I guess it's because they're expecting someone like me. But to be fair, I don't know if I would've ended up like this if it weren't for the people I met when I first got here.

I wish I knew what to say, but I have no idea.

[alchemicals]

You don't have to say anything. It's like I've said, I'm pretty okay with things the way they are.

I don't really see much reason to change anything. If I really have to - and I've got no idea why I'd really have to - then I'll think about it? But I like things like this, I guess.

[greatestcool]

You don't have to. I mean, maybe if things start going really badly with Elios you might want to think about trying something new, but I think it's up to you what you do.

And hey, if you like it, that's got to give you some positivity, right?

[thank you, ryuunosuke, you are definitely helping]

[alchemicals]

[...it could be worse, tbh]

You know, I've considered talking to him at some point. No idea why I haven't yet, honestly, but sometimes I think about it.