EMPATHEIAS IC CONTACT

[greatestcool]

IC CONTACT

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[greatestcool]

Um. You mean... filling it? I'm pretty sure most people's crystals do that.

[OH NO KIMBLEY YOU HAD FEELINGS!!!!]

[alchemicals]

...Huh.

[God, you can practically hear the headtilting over the crystal, what the shit- ]

There usually aren't that many colors.

[greatestcool]

That's good though, that means you're putting a lot of feelings in there! Mine's like, really bright green.

[He can definitely do appreciation!! He is a master at appreciating things, apparently.]

What color's yours?

[alchemicals]

...Well, it's usually this really, really dark red, and it mostly still is. Now it's...

[...]

Sort of disgusting, actually, but either way it's pretty dark.

[greatestcool]

Huh, have you been upset lately? Mad or other negative emotions? Mine gets darker whenever stuff like that comes up.

[alchemicals]

Yeah, I kind of had a lot of negativity dumped into my head for the past couple of months, so that's probably it. A few good things, too, don't get me wrong. But it's usually pretty negative, and a lot of the good things usually end up getting destroyed anyway, probably because there are less of them.

I know enough to not show that to most people, though.

[greatestcool]

Ah, I gotcha. Yeah, it's probably best not to let anyone see it. I don't know what they'd do, but... yeah.

[Who knows. Some of those people might want to try the apathy drug out again.]

So do you usually feel upset? You sound okay to me.

[alchemicals]

Hell no. It's not like I'm doing anything to cause it, either - I mean, I know the apathy kind of eats the liquid after a while, and I...think the red is because I'm aligned to Elios? But it's nothing I'm too aware of doing.

[...he's got no idea how this works.]

[greatestcool]

Hmm, yeah, that'd explain the red at least. I don't really know how to get it to do anything; I just know I'm happy a lot and mine's really bright.

[Don't worry Kimbley, you're not alone.]

[alchemicals]

Well, I still don't usually feel a lot of anything, so...

[...???]

I'll probably ask someone eventually, I just know he's probably going to get pissed off because it's so dark.

[greatestcool]

I don't really know how to help you there. I hang out with someone who always makes me feel great, but I don't know if that sort of thing would work on you.

[alchemicals]

[...Did he accidentally make you kind of weird and sad again.]

Like I said, it's okay. It's not like I really mind or anything, and I'm not upset.

[greatestcool]

[Maybe a little bit...]

Well yeah, but something's causing your crystal to go dark. Are you sure you're okay?

[alchemicals]

...Pretty sure.

[...]

Elios is love and hatred, right? That...probably explains a lot.

[greatestcool]

Yeah. I guess it does. I was aligned to Elios when I first showed up, but it changed somehow.

[...]

There are people you don't hate though, right? Maybe try hanging out with them more?

[alchemicals]

I think it's just kind of a universal thing...? It does that even when I'm not hanging out with anyone.

[...Those implications are a little unfortunate, hang on- ]

...Wow. Okay, I did not mean that to be half as depressing as it sounded, I'm pretty sure it's just the status quo and not anything aimed at myself specifically.

[greatestcool]

Well, at least it's not aimed at you? But wow, that's... something else. Do you just hate everyone and some people you hate less than others?

[Because that's what it's sounding like and... yikes.]

[alchemicals]

Basically.

[Like it ain't even a thing.]

It's something I wouldn't have put into words like that before coming here, but at least I get why I like watching people die so much now, and why I don't care who does it as long as somebody does.

[greatestcool]

...I wonder if it was that way for me...?

[Well, that's not important right now.]

Are you okay with leaving things the way they are or is that something you want to try to change? I mean, I wouldn't know how to start changing, but...

[You can probably tell he's shrugging really hard. Like hell if he knows how to handle this.]

[alchemicals]

...You know, everyone keeps asking me that and I don't get why.

[greatestcool]

Well, I guess that answers that question!

[...but more seriously--]

I guess it's because they're expecting someone like me. But to be fair, I don't know if I would've ended up like this if it weren't for the people I met when I first got here.

I wish I knew what to say, but I have no idea.

[alchemicals]

You don't have to say anything. It's like I've said, I'm pretty okay with things the way they are.

I don't really see much reason to change anything. If I really have to - and I've got no idea why I'd really have to - then I'll think about it? But I like things like this, I guess.

[greatestcool]

You don't have to. I mean, maybe if things start going really badly with Elios you might want to think about trying something new, but I think it's up to you what you do.

And hey, if you like it, that's got to give you some positivity, right?

[thank you, ryuunosuke, you are definitely helping]

[alchemicals]

[...it could be worse, tbh]

You know, I've considered talking to him at some point. No idea why I haven't yet, honestly, but sometimes I think about it.

[greatestcool]

With Elios? I talked to him a bit back when I was aligned to him. He was really cute!

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